Post by paytonleigh on Jan 22, 2018 23:54:41 GMT -5
Hello. I know this is a cliche thing to say, but I’ve always been different. I wasn’t bullied often at school. I’ve never gone very long without friends. But I’ve never been able to really express myself to the friends I had. I’ve realized over the years that I don’t care for other people. I’ve never really cared about their lives or emotions. I simply don’t enjoy other people’s company. For as long as I can remember I have been obsessed with the macabre. I like the darkness and all it holds. When I was eleven years old I stumbled across Wicca. And that made me delve deep into witchcraft. I never became a Wiccan, though. That path was not meant for me. But I realized that the more I looked into all things supernatural/paranormal, the more I felt at home. I’ve watched hundreds of horror/occult movies and read more books than I can count about fictional supernatural worlds. Each time I read a book, I find it harder and harder to return to reality. I have had two suicide attempts in my life. The first time I cut my wrist with a razor. And the second time I overdosed on sleeping pills. Each attempt failed, obviously, and I was hospitalized both times. Each time I tried this, my exact thoughts were “my life will never be more than ordinary.” Now, I believe, I can have a more than ordinary life. I have researched vampires/vampyres (however you wish it to be spelled) and I’ve often found conflicting facts and opinions. Some say they do have red eyes and they die in sunlight. Others say they look normal and the sun only gives them a mild sunburn. I do not know what is fact and what is not. But I do know this, I believe that there are creatures (no offense) out there that they are more than ordinary. I believe in witches and vampires/vampyres and werewolves and the like. I believe in ghosts and demons even. I want someone to either prove me right, or prove me wrong. I’m afraid that if I was proven wrong, I would have no real reason to live. The only thing I can hold on to is actually meeting a truly supernatural being. I don’t mean to sound needy or awful. I feel the need to be honest. If you or anyone you know is in fact an enhanced being, please reply and I will give you the information to contact me privately.
