Post by bloodyalli on Sept 2, 2020 17:29:00 GMT -5
I'm going put my neck out on the line and post this thread. I am a 23-years-old transitioning transwoman. I relate to each trait mentioned in the website, except for the high tolerance to alcohol and that my father wasn't the one who walked out of my life initially, as well as, my nails not being clear, but are still very strong and sharp. Besides that I've never tried a few for obvious safety reasons, except that before I came across the website I had eaten several pork sausages with some friends that turned out to still be mostly raw. I was the only that didn't get food poisoning, and I also do have an inexplicable craving for raw meat. The first time I tried blood it was from myself, but I have tried human blood from one other person. My birth mother neglected me and my blood sisters walking out of our lives before I turned six. Our father had been in our life, however, when I was young he abused me and my siblings physically and emotionally. Me and my sisters are spiritual whether we want to be or not. I have seen spirits without a doubt, as well as, my sisters, and since as long as I can remember, I have had vivid nightmares of death that give me deja vu and a few premonitions. Most involve vampires, which resulted in a paradoxical fear. My irises each have a dark ring around them, although my eyes change color between blue, grey, and green. I have had friends argue on the color of my eyes, and I have pictures of them becoming grey during one of my grieving periods and green while I am happy which is rare. Even before I recognized that I am trangender, I knew that I just wasn't entirely human, but I'm still in denial. I have never wanted to be involved with this community after reading Steve's website until fairly recently because I wanted another opinion to know if I am one. There's a part of me that believes that there's no doubt, I am one. But there's another part that's scared and tries to avoid the prospect all together and deny it. I just rather be poser as a result of donning the fashion sense as a way of coping with my longest lasting fear. So I guess I'm just here for confirmation. A real vampire confirming whatever the answer is will help ease my soul, I believe. I need a real answer. I need help.